My family and I have been through a very rough season this year. I know that I haven’t been posting lately. It is because I had to work through some things. I know many people use art to work out their issues. I have been utterly unable to paint. It seems I have lost whatever it was that allowed me to do that. Each time I have tried to paint, I simply go blank and feel guilty that I should be doing something more productive. This is not my inner critic. I just don’t feel like it.
I have begun to try something that is utterly new for me instead. I have always crocheted from patterns, with very little variation. I had a dream a few days ago of a hat with a face on it, so I decided to try. It isn’t exactly like the hat in my dream, but here is my new “art.” I hope you enjoy. By the way, I opened a shop on Etsy recently. The hat is for sale there for anyone interested. AdornWithSplendor
By the way, if any of you have ever made something from a dream post below and tell me about it. I would love to hear!
I live in Northern Colorado near Fort Collins. The cities have wonderful parks here. We walked through the park. It was sad. My poor little wiener dog gave out and couldn’t walk the whole time. We had to carry him. My kids all played on one of the playgrounds. We saw a sculpture out of an old tree. There was also a group of people playing with a parachute. I hope you enjoy our pictures.
Today I read a post on the blog Standing For Something. It was simple advice, but I really enjoyed it. The article is 14 Days to Improve Your Relationships. Call me crazy, but I think that each of us could improve some of the relationships in our lives. I know that I am prone to lose my temper and maybe not treat the people I love in a way that shows them how special that they are. Ali, thank you for taking the time to remind all of us to live life just a little fuller.
Well, Dad is in the hospital again. I am not quitting, but my dream of winning Nanowrimo 2011 has flown away. Some things are more important than a deadline.
The last week has shown me how easy it is to lose confidence in myself. There are a few circumstances in my life, that have really made me feel vulnerable. Sometimes I feel almost paralyzed with fear. This week one of my kids had a serious lapse in good judgement that left me helpless. I have been extremely tense this week with fear. I know that God will always be there for me, but I haven’t been able to remember it when fear felt like a straight jacket wrapped around me.
I also started a class this week with Katie Kendrick. She is utterly amazing! I have never seen anyone make art look so effortless. I know that my skill level is not as good as many of the other students, which is adding to my fear of inadequacy. Here are two of the paintings I have made in the class so far.
I like this one. I think it really captures my feelings this week.
And this one fell short of my aspirations. It reminds me of a puppet in drag, not quite the look I aimed for.
I am not all I wish for. I have so much to learn and do. I know that if I just practice more and trust God, I will become the person he wants me to become. Some days I just wish it was easier.
It seems that sickness is hanging around my life like a cloud. My daughter was sick with a nasty cold. Then my father-in-law had pneumonia along with his ailing heart. Then my daughter got sick again. She’s missed three days of school. Tomorrow we should know if it is strep. That is a good thing because my husband and I are both coming down with this.
I want so much to create, but there has been so little time to go off on my own. Everyone else has needed my attention. I am most of the way done with another project from Carla Sonheim’s summer camp, that I can’t wait to show you!
I am reading a new book to the family, Michael Vey: The Prisoner of Cell 25 by Richard Paul Evans. The kids are all enjoying it. My husband was busy and I read a chapter without him only to experience his dismay.
Well, those are the events here. Let me know what is going on with you.
I have no art to show today. I spent time with my family for the holiday, which was great. Nothing is better than looking into my children’s’ eyes and seeing that love reflected back. I have so enjoyed listening to their laughter and enjoying their discoveries. For instance, my youngest daughter decided that men who capture rattlesnakes for a living are crazy dum dums. If this is you, I mean no offense. I suppose a lot of my actions each day require a little crazy dum dum.
Last night we had dinner at Red’s Dogs and Donuts. What a treat! I decided it was time to try something new. I had the Slaw Dog Millionaire, all beef hot dog, bacon, cole slaw, and tomatoes. I was not really certain how that would turn out, but it was great! If you happen to be in Greeley, CO, I recommend a stop at Red’s.
I have been teaching my oldest daughter how to read a crochet pattern. She is making a turquoise beanie hat. I just love to see her excited about how it is turning out. There isn’t much out there that is more rewarding than taking the time to invest in your children.